Friday, 23 October 2009

Every fool's got a reason to feel sorry for themself

And this fool's reason? This fool has been feeling sorry for herself because she suddenly realised her job had gone from "quite interesting" to "boring 9 to 5". I don't quite know when that happened, but I woke up one day and realised I didn't want to do it any more.

So I'm going to do a career assessment. What's a career assessment, you all say. Well. It's a... well, a career assessment. It goes something like this: You have several meetings with a consultant who asks you lots of questions about you, your job, your aspirations, your likes/dislikes (work-related and not-quite-so-work-related). It's like a great big personality/skills/career assessment. The aim of which is to make sure your career is on track to where you want it to be going, where you feel comfortable with it going, and how to make it go where you would like if it's not there already. Sort of.

I'm feeling enthusiastic about doing the career assessment, because I know it will help me identify where my strengths are, and my weaknesses. When it's done, I'll have a much better idea of where I want to go and how to get there. The expectation being that my destination will be something I have chosen and decided, not something that just sort of happened to me (which is pretty much how I ended up doing what I currently do).

I am feeling a bit crestfallen about my employer's reaction to all this. Having explained that I wasn't motivated by my job any more and no, it's not the company, it's the job, I was maybe hoping my manager might say "so let's talk about this, tell me what you'd like to change if you could". But no. They just said "OK, well, keep us posted". I almost heard "OK, well, let us know when you're ready to resign".

Hey ho.

Still, will not let that dampen my enthusiasm. I have a challenge, a project. It's mine and I don't care if my employer doesn't want to share it with me. Maybe I don't want to share it with them ;)


Zhu said...

I loved teaching the first 2.5 years and then started to get bored. I thought I need a holidays. Took one, came back, still bored. I realized it wasn't the company or anything, but me. I needed a change.

Finding another work and another niche wasn't easy but I'm glad I did it. I was going crazy working in a job I didn't love anymore.

So good luck!

the fly in the web said...

Only just back and catching it. Otherwise you'll get so angry with yourself later.

Lis of the North said...

Hey Zhu! Yeah I saw from your blog you're back in college and good for you! It's great to have a project and I hope you achieve what you're looking for.
Hi fly. Well, I've had approval for funding my career assessment so I guess that's the first step to something new!